MARCH 3 2026

That weird feeling from yesterday was, naturally, the flu. Another lesson in trusting the universe. If she says lay down, then you lay down and don't infect everyone at pinball. 

I used some weird doctor website, the doctor called me, and gave me medicine that shrinks the flu from 14 to 3 days. Isn't that crazy? So I'm not depressed, and modern medicine is going to save me. Yippee!

MARCH 2 2026

Man, do I feel weird. I'm not sure what's going on. I feel nothing, like I smoked too much weed, but also really annoyed for no reason. Pretty certain that my period is about to start, but damn, why torture me mentally too? I was going to go to pinball tonight, but then I just laid down. And then I stayed down. Nothing to see here. I like writing because you can do it lying down. My mind is completely blank, and the annoyance is coming from within my body. It's just a feeling... Maybe I can take a nap and then go to pinball, maybe I'm just tired, maybe I'm not really getting up. I am lowercase tonight. 

FEB 28 2026
Not really March at all, but tomorrow it should be March as long as everything goes according to plan. 

Teacher rant: Still looking for a new job, I made 5 color copies at work and got written up... as a reminder, I teach preschool. I need color copies because they can only read like 5 words total: cat, rat, bat, mat, sat. The school has a color printer, but teachers just aren't allowed to use it. I don't even like this job. Sometimes I want to email my boss and say, "Are you fucking stupid?" but instead I say, "This printing guideline restricts my ability to complete teaching tasks, such as lesson implementation, as outlined by the ECE department." The union said that she can decide how the printer is used, but she can not restrict access to the printer altogether. The principal and I are on email 11 about this topic. Then, my other boss keeps trying to come up with a "new way to teach phonics." But she's never seen me teach phonics. I have a master's degree in early childhood education, and she doesn't, and neither do the other ECE teachers. Girl, ask me. She's literally just making stuff up. She told me that she "just asked ChatGPT for phonics activities." Education is crazy because you can have a doctorate and still no one will respect your input. Context: I have taught at this school for 5 years.

Again, I don't even want to teach anymore.

Job search update: I have two potentials that I am excited about!!! I completed 3 interviews for one of the positions, so now they are just deciding my fate. I am picturing myself starting a new job :)

This post will be awesome to look at when I am sitting at the desk of my new job! 

Otherwise, I am feeling really good about my life. I am concerned that bad job is overshadowing small negative things in my life and that those things will come to fruition when I am no longer stressed out about my job, but honestly, bring it on. I would love 
to have time to work on myself and continue to craft the best life possible!