Bead in either hand

I am an animal with it's pray

Surrounded by gleeful on lookers sipping their party drinks

I can't stop thinking abut having a baby

I would be so good at it

I got a degree in it

We would go to the park, the zoo, an early jazz concert

I would smell her baby head while I bounce her on my lap

We would go to the park with our friends and we would teach her how to breath deeply

We would dance the way babies dance and clap at every passing car

She would have her own sense of style from an early age

I teach 40 babies everyday so I imagine that one baby will be ok

There's a kid sitting near me, he's dancing and then he says, "I'm never gonna leave, oh my god!"

He's having the time of his life at the local jazz show

People say "oh you'll stop having fun," but I have never met anyone funnier or more interesting than a child.

Babies are sticky, stinky, loud, and needy, but they are also so fucking cool.

I once saw a newly walking baby chose to take a ramp because she knew that she could not handle the stairs.

So you're telling me that, at a point in my life, my neurons finally fired so that I could make a judgement call of the first time in my life!?

I'm so grateful that that happened and I want to see that

Be a part of that.

Do you know what I'm saying?

It's hard,

He says 5 more years and I feel like I just met him

daycare is expensive.

I could live near my mom, who has a proverbial doctorate in baby.

Or stay close to my friends.

But to be near my mom I would be moving to New Orleans and not the country and I love it there.

My friends would come visit our guest room.

They can join in on her first memories.

She will be a community baby.

The universal friend.

It's a difficult, life changing decision and there's no good or wrong time to make it. I don't know if it's my decision or our decision. But the question is:

When to make a baby?